Socialan : Philippine Fashion Week (May 29, 2009)

A 9-day event ( May 23 to June 3, 2009) at SMX Convention.

Got an invitation for this event (thanks to Omar)

A fashion show that feautured designers like CEIGE CAGALAWAN, DELBY BRAGAIS, DIMPLE LIM, EDWIN UY, KERMIT TESORO, NORMAN NORIEGA

Dumating ako sa SMX ng 9:20, i thought i was late na pero di pa pala kasi the doors were not yet open. So ive waited for a few mins pa, bago nakapasok sa function rooms. Akala ko since it was a rsvp event, they will ask for the tickets, pero di. ni hindi na nga nila napansin ung ibang pumapasok.

anyways, it was still a nice show pa rin naman since, the designers and the clothes na inirampa ng mga models were good (though not all hehehe)

till next time.. ;))

Personal : i want to resign

ive been dealing this personal problem since time immemorial. i must admit that im not happy with my work anymore and i just dont have any choice but to stick on this fucking job since i cant afford to loose a job.

i have a lot of things to consider. i have to think of my sister and not my self. but promise i really want to quit

maybe that's one of the reason why some of our clients had been complaining with the way i treated them, even if i wanted to be nice to them i just cant help getting annoyed sometimes. especially if the client is too dominant.

Lord please help me decide what to do.. guide me in every step i take.. pls enlighten my mind.

usapang ex part 1

may part 1 talaga hahahaha kasi shemps may part 2 din eto lolz

hehehhe since uso na rin lang ang usapang ex makikiuso na rin ako lol

napaisip lang ako bigla after the talked with an ex, kasi akala ko laging sila ung may kasalanan, but after that talk narealize ko na siguro nga in some way i also have faults and shortcomings..

i came to realize why most of my past realationships failed...then binalik balikan ko ung mga past relationships ko.. with s talaga kasi nuon pa pampam na ko hahah

MY 1ST BF- i was in 2nd year highschool when i had my first bf, he was in 4th year then and one of the campus crush.. sapilitin ang pagsagot hahaha as in literal na sapilitan ha, di ako pinauwi, kinuntsaba pa ung mga barkada at pinsan at kapatid ko hahaha.. but it ended after 3 months i guess, dahil may nakita siyang mas maganda at sikat hahaha (pinagpalit niya ko sa isang campus beauty queen) because of the simple reason na di pa raw ako ready nun makipagrelasyon, kasi di ako sumasama pag inaaya nya kong magdate, shemps naman di ba takot pa ko nun hahaha.

* we saw each other when i wasin college, kapitbahay pala niya ung naging bestfriend ko nung college and he knows one of my fling then ;D small world right?!

* 2004 when i saw him again and nanliligaw ulit pero di ko na siya type hahaha, ngayun may asawa na siya lol

MY 2ND BF - Fourth year ako when i had my 2nd bf (bestfriend ni roan, hahahahah you heard it right bestfriend siya ng bf ko ngayun) ex siya ng 2 barkada ko.. eto medyo tumagal, i know this guy really loved me, kasi he would go to our house para umakyat ng ligaw, tapos ung typical na teenager na pahatid hatid hahaha.. 10 months yata kaming tumagal nito, nagkaroon ng 3rd party on my part, i two-timed him.. tapos i decided na makipagbreak sa kanya, and i know i hurt him badly.. saksi si roan at ibang barkada namin kung ganu siya nasaktan. pero that time kasi nabored ako sa kanya tapos i found someone nga..

* inayawan pala ko ng nanay nito hahaha ewan ko kung bakit tapos nung nagbreak na kami at nakapag asawa siya nagsisisi ung nanay niya sana raw kami na lang nung anak niya nagkatuluyan at lalong nagsisisi nung nalaman na kami na ni roan

* married na rin siya ngayun . when he found out na kami na ni roan, hes happy for us, i remember pa nung tumawag siya (he's in dubai na nung naging kami ni roan) tapos he asked kung totoong kami nga ni roan and i said yes tapos nung nagbreak kami ni roan sa kanya ko inilabas ung sama ng loob ko kay roan and sabi nya babatukan daw niya si roan pag nagkita sila hahaha*

MY 3RD BF - hes my classmate nung college, siya ung pinalit ko dun kay 2nd bf.. siya ang first kiss ko hahahahhha i think 6 months yata kami tumalag after akong magsawa sa kanya lolz ay hindi pala naalala ko meron kaming malanding clasmate tapos piniflirt siya tapos naging sila, tapos nagbreak sila after 2 weeks lang yata nakikipagbalikan siya he realized daw na ako pa rin talaga ung mahal niya and he wants me to introduce to his dad pero wala na, kahit may konti pa kong feelings sa kanya ayaw ko na, kasi niloko niya na ko, nagdrop siya sa class namin..

* saw him 2004, my long time gf na siya nun, we talk about what had happened, sinabi niya na kaya daw nagawa niya un kasi di daw ako malambing, most of the time mas gusto kong kasama ang barkada at pag magdate lagin ring kasama ang barkada. and i was fashionable that time..

* my communication pa rin kami...he's married na, and has 1 daughter, he's in dubai and hes willing to sponsor me kung gusto ko raw pumunta dun.. but sabi ko ayoko ng tukso .. and btw, sabi niya i look hot daw ngayun lol

* had flings after the break up pero nagkaroon ako ng record na hanggang 3 months lang ang tinatagal ko sa mga relasyon ko, dunno why pero ang dali kong magsawa maybe because im still young at that time

MY 4TH BF - 2nd year college.was my instructor hahahha in college. 3 months lang kami tumagal dahil masyado kong nasasakal sa kanya. gusto nya after class magkasama kami and siya lang ungkasama ko.. this guy proposed to my mom hahaha uu nauna pang magsabi sa nanay ko na gusto niya raw akong pakasalan hahaha.. my first marriage proposal lol. saka di ko natalaga siya feel, pero nasira din buhay nito sakin bwahahaha he took a leave for 2 weeks kinausap ako ng admin namin and he even spoke to my mom.. na kahit my bf na ko pumupunta pa rin siya sa bahay namin pero un nga ayaw ko na and pinagpalit ko siya on ONE OF HIS STUDENT, MY FIRST SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP..

* nung grumaduate ako di niya ko pinansin kinongrats nya ungmga barkada kopero ako hindi bitter?! hehehe

* saw him after a year, bitter pa rin siya, nilasing kami ng mga barkada ko at mga co-instructor nya kaya nilabas niya lahat ng sama ng loob niya sakin

* saw him 2003 (i think) he has a gf na, & theyre planning to get married i went ot STI (dun din siya nagtuturo) tapos when he saw me, wala ng bitterness on his part tapos niloloko kami nung mga co-instrustor nya na alam ang naging story namin and nakikipaglokohan naman ako then a girl entered in the faculty room and i knew that time that she heard lahat ng biruan, and di ko naman alam na siya pala ung "gf" ni ex hahaha nung gabi nagtext sakin si ex sabi niya baliw daw ako at inaaway daw siya nung gf niya dahil sakin hahahahah

Hinto ko muna dito kasi ung mga susunod na usapan eh serious mode na hahahahah...

but narealize ko na etong sa mga relasyon ko na toh, ako ung may mali ako ung may pagkukulang... and in some way nakakapanghinayang lol (manghinayang daw ba?!) hahaha kasi theyre all good shots and they really loved me...

ps. wala po akong malaking regret nasabi ko lang un hahaha kuntento na ko kay roan hahaha(mababatukan na naman ako nitop *toinks*)

enjoy ur weekend everyone!

being in a long distance relationship

repost from my multiply account (april 21, 2009)

For someone who's not used to LDR, mahirap, sobrang hirap kung pano ihandle ang LDR. Especially kung dumarating ung weekends, nasanay ako na magkasama kami ng bf ko. Pero ngayon i have to wait pa for 2 years para lang magkasama kami.

Pero masarap din dahil walang bumabawal sayo *toinks* jokeness lang

Ive learned, being into this kind of relationship. I learned how to be contented and creative. I learned how to be PATIENT, and still learning... Kung gano kahaba ang distansya nyo dapat ganun din kahaba ang pasensiya nyo.

For the first year na nasa LDR kami, ang daming pagsubok ang dumating. Dumating kami sa point na gusto na naming bumitaw, lalo na ko. Ang hirap pag sobrang namimiss nyo na ung isat isa, but you cant do anything but chat, text lang. Hindi madali ang pinagdaanan namin, lalo na umpisa, at hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin madali but we are trying to work things out.

COMMUNICATION is important in a LDR, you have to keep your communication always OPEN. You have to update each other, kung ano na ang nangyayari sa buhay buhay niyo, kahit sa pang araw araw nyo lang. I must admit before, well hanggang ngayun medyo may problema pa rin kami sa communication. (medyo lang naman) atlis natututo na si Roan, lagi ko kasing sinasabi sa kanya na sabihin niya sakin kung san siya pupunta. Nung una, dito ko muntik muntikanan na talagang bumigay. Minsan kasi mawawala siya ng 3 days, and i didnt hear anything about him as in, no emails, no texts. Ngayun marunong na siyang magsabi hehehe..

HONESTY is important too.. Kahit malayo kaya dapat honest kayo sa isat isa. Hindi pwedeng maging hadlang and distance para maglihim or magtago kayo sa isat isa.

Like what ive said PATIENCE is really important. wait kung kailan kayo hehehe...kailangan ng ibayong pasensiya at pang unawa pag nasa LDR ka, kailangan mong maging open minded. Hindi pupwedeng sarili mo lang ang pakikinggan mo.

Put GOD in the center of your relationship, ask for his GUidance.

Lagi kong sinasabi kay roan, na we have to BE SENSITIVE sa mga binibitawan nating salita, or kahit texts man lang. Kasi mahirap sa text or email di mo alam kung joke lang ba yun, since hindi mo naman nakikita ung facial expression ng isat isa.

Alam kong marami satin dito ang nasa LDR, at talagang hindi ganun kadali. but as long both of you wants to make that relationship works then nothing is impossible.

so goodluck satin ng bonggang bongga

on wedding churvah!

repost from my multiply account ( april 25, 2009)

Everytime na makakarinig ako ng mga kakilala or kaibigan na ikakasal, I cant help but feel envious, sometimes. Siguro kasi that’s one of my ultimate dream, o lahat naman halos siguro ng babae eh un ang pangarap, hindi man engrande or bonggang bonggang wedding eh ung tipong almost perfect sayo…

When I was a kid, lagi ko ng iniisip that someday ikakasal din ako, tapos alam ko na kung ano ung gusto kong style ng wedding gown heheheh. Alam ko na kung anong motif ang gusto ko. Kung anung style ng invitation, kung ano ung souvenir ko hahahaha

Simula nung nagkaroon ako ng bf, which is when I was in 2 year high school, tapos nagsunod sunod na, lagi sinasabi ng relatives ko even my father, na siguro raw mag aasawa ako agad. Meron pa kong relatives na nagsabi na, baka nga raw di na ko makagraduate ng highschool mag aasawa na ko, kasi nga they see me as malandi. Yeah siguro halos lahat ng taong nakakakilala sakin nun un gang iniisip. Pero ako deadma, so what, alam ko kung ano ko, at kung ano ung totoo.

Laging sinasabi sakin na mama ko na gayahin ko siya na 26 na nag asawa, sabi ko siguro mga 24 pwede na kong mag asawa, pero di natuloy hahah..

Pero taena, im 27 already, turning 28 this December, and no plans for wedding yet hahaha, Ironic isn’t it?! 4 times nang may nagpropose ng wedding sakin since I was 18 hehehe pero potek gang ngayun im still single hehehe

Naalala ko nung nag get together kami ng mga classmate ko nung elementary, and one of the guy who used to court me back then, eh nagsabi na di raw nya inisip na single pa rin ako gang ngayun, and even ung mga relatives ko na nagsabi na maaga kong mag aasawa, eh naiinip na ngayon, nung umuwi nga ako nung holy week sabi ng lola ko..

”anak, ikaw ba eh wala pang balak mag asawa, ako eh kinakabahan sayo, kasi mahirap ung maging matandang dalaga” hahahahh

sabi ko “inang relax lang kayo jan, darating din tayo jan” well gasgas na sakin ung linya na yan, heheheh everytime na may nagtatanung sakin kung bakit di pa ko nag aasawa ganyan ang sinasagot ko..

Would you believe, na meron na kong entourage hahaha, Blank na lang ang name ng groom lol, pathetic isn’t it? ;D eh bakit ba feel ko lang hahahha

yes, I must admit medyo naiinip na ko, pero I have to wait if I really want HIM.

Sabi ko nga naubos na yata ang appeal, kaya gang ngayun single pa rin ako lol.

So bakit nga ba single pa ko gang ngayun?! Kasi nga ayaw pa nya bwahahahahah

But seriously speaking siguro nga di pa talaga time …. ;D

oh how i love this man!

repost from my multiply account.....(april 25, 2009)

share ko lang roan's recent pictures hehehe (taken two weeks ago)

love his new hair cut, well siya lang ang naggugupit niyan since masyadong mahal ang haircut sa canada heheh (ganyan siya ka kauripot) madalas kinukuriputan niya sarili niya hahaha but when it comes to travelling and giving to his love ones ay galante naman yan hihihihi.

but i think he just cut his hair again kasi nirerequire na raw siya nung chef niya. and di ko pa nakikita.

pero etong mga picture na toh sabi ko nga sa kanya, "baby sa 11 years na magkakilala tayo ngayun lang ako napogian sayo" hahahahaha

blast from the past

Had a chat with one of my exes today, naalala ko kasi siya last night, when i got the chance to retrieved some of my old stuff. i saw the card he gave me. and medyo nagtutuksuhan kami nung nagkachat kami.. madaling pagusapan or balikan ung nakaraan coz wala naman kaming pinag awayan nung naghiwalay kami.

i must admit he's my frist kiss, as in met him in college, broke up with my bf then (who is my hs friend) in favor ofhim.. but no regrets.

what he had is something we really treasure till the rest of our lives. the friendship and respect is still there.

im happy for him, now that he has family na, and im glad that everything is going on smoothly with him and his wife.

kakatuwa lang talaga na makausap ang taong naging bahagi ng iyong nakaran